Thanks for letting me join and a chance to share my story. I’ve not done anything like this before so here goes. I guess I’m just your typical stay-at-home mum to our two kids and Lottie, our fur-baby. I’ll be hitting 48 this year and I’ve kind of hit a crossroads. My youngest has just started secondary school so my school run days are now over although they’ve been replaced by the morning dog walk, which Lottie thinks is still the school run just minus her human sister!
2018 was probably one of the hardest years for our little family. My dear dad died in February, he’d had Parkinson’s for ten years and fought so hard against it, he was my rock in so many ways. My mum has been amazing throughout and has been so strong for all of us especially me. We celebrated his birthday yesterday after visiting the memorial gardens and then chatted and laughed about old times, the perfect tonic to get through the day.
My husband was made redundant in July so we’ve had to face difficult situations. It’s been a really tough six months since, filled with endless applications forms, just one interview and lots of rejection emails. My husband has also had ill health over the last ten years. He was diagnosed with a serious heart condition when he was just 33 and suffered his first cardiac arrest in 2009. He was in intensive care for two days and fitted with a pacemaker and an ICD. The ICD has saved his life now on four occasions but his last cardiac arrest in 2013 caused him to suffer a serious head injury which damaged his inner ear and resulted him losing his hearing. He was without any hearing aids for four months and managed to continue his banking job. He manages with just one hearing aid which has all the up to date technology. He’s also in the process of having a cochlear implant fitted which should hopefully give him some hearing in his right ear. It also affected his balance so sometimes he struggles with walking. Being made redundant has been a huge blow to his confidence and trying to find a job suitable for him now is proving difficult. He has stayed so positive throughout the years even though he has had to deal with these health problems, he counts himself lucky he is still with us. The children also have to be checked for this heart condition so they have six monthly checks at the amazing Great Ormond Street hospital.
I am now in the process of finding work too but after fifteen years of being a full time mum it’s a very daunting and overwhelming process. Sitting in front of a young careers advisor made me feel like a teenager again as she asked me what career I would like to take. I suddenly felt very old and a bit of a failure as I wouldn’t have anything to offer any employer. She said the gap in my career was called ‘homemaker’ which covered many skills including budgeting, time keeping and negotiating! I guess she might be right. I’ve loved just being a mum and now it’s maybe my time to shine but I’m not sure where. The thought of sitting for an interview fills me with both dread and sweaty palms!
Thanks for letting me have the opportunity to write it all down, it really has helped. I look forward to hearing more of everyone’s stories and hopefully I’ll find that inspiration of what path is best for me.