It's 2015 and I'm walking on stage to collect my award at the NatWest Everywoman Awards. The applause is deafening and I am smiling from ear to ear but inside I feel terrified, and not in a good way.
It's not that nervous excitement you’d expect but that sick feeling in the pit of your stomach I had grown to become so familiar with. Lately, my anxiety has been almost crippling - I nearly didn’t turn up to this event.
I'm furious with myself which makes me feel even more pathetic – this is the height of my career! A couple of years ago I was sitting in a cafe on the phone to my mum crying, telling her I had to declare bankruptcy after the failure of my corporate events business. I nearly lost my home, yet with every ounce of energy and determination I launched my company and made it a success in less than a year.
Now I am being awarded The Daily Mail's Mumpreneur of the Year award in celebration of this success and I can’t bring myself to feel happy, let alone content. Instead I feel like a failure, like I am not good enough and surely, no one is interested in what I have to say?
Fast forward to today and I still get that nagging feeling of anxiety but I’ve found ways to cope with it. For those unfamiliar with anxiety it’s that little voice in your head telling you you’re not good enough, it's overwhelming wash of nerves is so strong it often stops you from doing the things you really want to do – it's powerful stuff. And I hate it.
Over my time as an entrepreneur, speaker, mentor and friend I have seen that anxiety isn’t reserved for the weak. It is in all of us and even the most confident and successful people can fall victims to it.
The anxiety I am talking about creeps in in times of vulnerability – whatever that situation might be. Professionally, it can mean that YOU are getting in the way of YOU!
It's a cruel reality that those of us who suffer with anxiety do so at the peak of success or around a moment of impending change, it can make things so much harder but you can learn to recognise the signs.
Here are my five key tips to dealing with anxiety:
Try to celebrate your wins - Big or small, take a moment to sit in that space and enjoy your triumphs.
Remember, it's ok to feel anxious - Ok so you're nervous, you’re having an anxious day – give yourself a break. How can you best handle this? Be kind to yourself and find what helps you. Perhaps talking to a friend or mentor, exercising, eating healthily or taking a step back to understand why you’re feeling overwhelmed.
Write - Keep a journal of how you feel when you're anxious so you can reflect on this and observe similar patterns. It’s the perfect tool to look back on objectively to see how you maybe sabotaging your own progression
Feel the fear and do it anyway – This one is easier said than done but the more times you overcome a situation where anxiety is taking hold, the more you’ll know that next time, you can overcome it. (Don’t forget to pat yourself on the back when you do – don’t berate yourself!)
Don't bottle it up – You can't always spill your every thought to your colleagues, friends or family. Try to speak to someone who is objective, who can help you discover where this fear is coming from and how you can tackle it.
Some anxiety issues need to be treated by your GP and medically managed, if they are getting in the way of your day-to-day life then you may need to seek medical advice.